I live this life
As best I can
My best doesn't feel good enough.
I'm trying
I will keep trying
I live each day
Struggle through
Until it's the next one
And that's a struggle too.

I live each day
I'm living
But not happily
Don't know how

Want to get back to a place where I feel ok
As a habit
Ok as a habit

I'm ok right now
coffee, bagel, walk, writing in the chilly morning
sitting in the sun
So that's a good start.

slow down
I think too much
it's a battlefield in here.

broken in pieces
shattered on the ground
trying to mend.

out of the woods yet
in the clear yet
good
but not yet good.

distract
not solve
can't fix it
just be.

at least I just want to be
but I can't
sometimes when I channel the.... everything... into something creative
I get a little breath
and I can focus
my mind quiets
at least for a little bit.

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