As best I can

I live this life
As best I can
My best doesn't feel good enough.
I'm trying
I will keep trying
I live each day
Struggle through
Until it's the next one
And that's a struggle too.

I live each day
I'm living
But not happily
Don't know how

Want to get back to a place where I feel ok
As a habit
Ok as a habit

I'm ok right now
coffee, bagel, walk, writing in the chilly morning
sitting in the sun
So that's a good start.